From the moment you hold your baby (or babies like me) in your arms, your life will change forever.
Not only will you experience a love like you’ve never known before, you’ll also encounter a flourish of up and down hormones. These hormones will then present you with a sense of protectiveness, which will often bring you to a place of defeat.
At some stage through your parenting journey, 9 times out of 10 you will long for the person that you once were. The free spirit that was able to come and go without worrying if you packed everything in the baby bag, on your way out.
At some stage of your parenting journey you’ll silently cry to yourself questioning why you decided to have children and at the same time of your parenting journey, you will live tiredness like you never knew it before.
Every day repetitiveness of some of the following tasks below may seem so increasingly intense and when you add anxious to the mix of things, nothing is glorified.
- Waking up every few hours to feed
- Changing nappies, which feels endless
- Cleaning up projectile vomits, while dry reaching
- Understanding your babies cry, all whilst trying to comfort and rock them
- The whining and wanting to be on you, especially when you are trying cook or clean
- Trying to implement a structured routine and sticking to it
- Sleep or lack of sleep, something once cherished that is now gone
- The change in your relationship because baby comes first and it’s no longer just the two of you
and honestly the list goes on and on! These are just a handful of tasks I picked that most of you may or may not resonate with, but I’m sure you get the gist of it.
The thing here is, there is a last time for everything and trust me when I say that!
Before you know it:
• Your baby will no longer need you to feed them.
• Your baby will no longer need to fall asleep on you and co-sleeping with them will be a distant memory.
• Your baby will no longer want to creep into your room at night for cuddles or to feel safe.
• Your baby will no longer need you to carry them on your hip, while you are cooking or cleaning.
• Your baby will no longer need you to wash their tiny bodies or scrub their hair in the bath.
• Your baby will no longer need your hand to cross the road
and (Drum Roll)….
• Your baby will no longer run to you with open arms like they once used to (which honestly makes me sad just thinking about it).
The thing here is, all these things will happen in the blink of an eye. Whilst a lot of those times haven’t actually come for me yet, I know they will. I am literally in the process of trying to prepare myself from being spooked all at once and in saying that, I don’t think I’m going to cope.
Soon you will look back to when you were wishing it to end and you’ll be reminiscing and trying to remember the time. I look at the twins who are 4 years old now and I am freaked out about how quickly that has come.
So while you are living in the crazy busy of it all, I urge you to take a step back and breathe. I want you to remind yourself that these days are limited and that one day it is all going to stop. Once your baby starts reaching for independence, I dare say you will yearn and crave for just one more day of it all.
Much love to all you Mumma’s x